Gone for way too long

 So, I know we have all been through so much! However, now that life is becoming somewhat livable let us hear it!! My kids and husband were out of school and work for what felt like forever. 

Being a teacher through the pandemic was crazy!!! Being a mom was even more craziness! I not only had to make sure my children got their work done during the day while trying to work from home but I had never known the drag of 6 yes 6 computers going all at once. Thankfully, one of my kids didn't have google meets so when her work was done she was done which was usually around 10am. The kids missed their friends, going places, and having a life as much as we did especially through sports. 

Fast forward to winter where yay for basketball! It sucked watching my asthmatic child try her hardest to play with a mask on knowing she had to take many breaks because it was killing her to run, jump and breathe through a mask but we done it. Then came high school soccer which anyone who truly knows me knows I love to watch my girls play. Soccer even though outdoors the kids had to wear masks. Yep, you read that right. These poor girls were playing in 100 degree weather, wearing a mask and running that field. They never once gave up which was outstanding. Well, as for my family we learned that high school soccer and  8u softball run together. My summer ended with my oldest playing for the regionals in soccer and my 8yr old playing for 3rd place in the tournament. Neither team won a trophy but my golly these kids won back a major piece of their lives!!

Now we are back in school full time somewhat. Soccer for my 8yr old is going pretty well; my oldest (15) is the assistant coach of the 3/4 and 5/6 grade teams. She is loving it but realizing everything has it's challenges. She is also refereeing some games to learn the experiences that they have to go through. 

I also got to be the one to take my cousins maternity photos, another families maternity photos, a gender reveal session,  a few 8th grade photos, my kids graduation from PK & 8th grade photos, and some different Prom photos, from over the summer, newborn and engagement photos which was amazing!  

I added a few photos from over the year. 

Life isn't always peaches and creme

You all know I am a photographer, a mom of five beautiful girls, a wife of a very loving husband, and a beachbody coach.

One thing I have learned is that life is not always what you want it to be..we get busy, things come up, dreams are taken away, and life happens. I promised myself that I would not let some things get to me but honestly they have my mind clouded to where I have NOT been working out, I have been in "angel world".

I love being a mom of my five girls and who knows maybe we will expand our family one day and maybe we won't. I had the dream of having a boy taken from me and yet some think it is "just a name". This was not taken by just some stranger or a friend but by my own sister. This name I have had picked out for MY SON if I ever had one has been taken.

I know once this gets out many will think I am throwing the pitty me party but keep reading until the end!

I was told it was something my Grandma told my sister to name her kid because they didn't have a boys name picked out. However, that to me is no excuse when you know that it has been picked out forever. Some say hers is Parker Alan not Alan Parker so you can still use the name...honestly NO I cannot because that would just be STUPID! Some may say I am being selfish but honestly I DO NOT care if I am.

This is for all those out there that think I need to "get over it", "move on", "it's just a name", "just get along", "forgive and forget", or "find a new name". I am sorry but see it is not that easy. I have tried to just find a new name but that doesn't bring back the dream of my only son having the name I picked out when I was little, the dream of my only son having a name picked out after my father and my Grandma. That doesn't make it any easier to sit and listen to you all say this because in the end I keep my mouth shut, I let it build up, I have to be the good girl. I am sick of being the one to forgive and forget and do it all over again.

In the end I know that many people fight battles like this and who knows I may get to have my son with a different name. Although, nobody should constantly be forgiving their family for doing screwed up stuff and trying to forget their dreams that they have had for a lifetime. Don't pitty me because I was screwed over but learn from me.

Keep your names for your potential children to yourself
Do not let people walk all over you for life because it's too short.

Today I am holding my head high and making sure to reach for the stars while I finish my 3 year old's room with my husband for his vacation, while I get ready to start Core de Force Monday (want to know about it just ask), and while I enjoy the life I have been given!

Letting Go..Stress

One loving family

 
I learned recently that sometimes you just have to learn to let go. When I say this I am not talking about of your kids, your family but just of stress or those who cause the stress in your life.

I learned that letting go of some of the people I have known for a while whether in person or online made my life so much easier. I can sleep better not knowing their every move, how much someone is annoyed, whether or not people are together or apart, if their kids are doing good.

Why am I saying this?

happy go lucky

I have to get this out!! I want to scream it from the mountains, run through the woods, swim across the ocean just to let people know it is okay to let go of those that bring you into a world you don't really know.

I was putting my marriage on wits end and for what?

I thought a few people I met back in school were worth it. I thought they'd be my friends. When in reality they were some of the first to leave when I had more kids. They were the first to try to but in when their relationship was bad but got upset mine was good.

Even worse were the ones I met online and that is the only way I knew them. They would call we would trade stories but in the end it was me constantly trying to help with their problems. They needed someone to vent to about how their lives were not going the way they wanted them to. Sometimes I would vent like any friends do but it just got old.

I walked away from it all. I walked away from relationships whether they were 5,7,12,17,25 years long. I left them because sometimes that is what you have to do to move on.

Having the time of our life

Since I let go, since I chose to just go be on my own with just us 7 A's it has been a lot easier. The life of my own has gotten 10 times less stressful. I can go to bed knowing I am going to wake up to 5 beautiful girls who count on me, I'm not on my phone as much so I can actually spend time one on one with all of them, I get to do more/see more, I get to have fun without feeling like I am rubbing it in anyone's face.

We get to have fun, we get to talk, we get to be us.

So letting go of those things that cause stress can be one of the best things you could do for your body, mind, and soul. It is the best thing you can do for your family because it lets your children, spouse, and everyone around you feel so much more at ease.

Now I work out daily, help others working out, sell books that children love and want like no other, photography because it is my passion. Sometimes letting go actually brings a whole lot more in for your family, your life, your future!!

We will always be one!

6 weeks gone and I am still pushing on!

You know they say that FAT people shouldn't show themselves or their bodies. I find this as wrong! I am a mom of 5 working to better myself while helping others better themselves. In the past 6 weeks I have accomplished so much more than I could have ever thought I could do without the support of My Husband first and foremost, My kids secondly, My coach, and Shaun T's CIZE Challenge Group!

All of these people helped me but like I said my husband did the most. He made me want to find the ME I want to be, he supports me daily telling me how great I am doing, he supports me by showing me and telling me the changes I have made, he makes me believe in myself, he makes me love who I am inside and out because he loves me inside and out! He has even surprised me with coming down to workout with me knowing he isn't big on dancing!!! Now that; all of that is support!

My kids have helped me find the child in myself again, they have gotten up and done my workout with me, they tell me how beautiful I am, and they are so much happier.

My coach reaches out to me, interacts with me, does challenge groups, and keeps me on my toes.

Shaun T's CIZE Challenge group is full of people doing the same program I am so it makes it easier, to have him at out finger tips is amazing, for everyone in there to be like-minded and nonjudgmental is amazing.

Honestly, I couldn't be where I am today if it weren't for all of these people! So, thank you for believing in me and trusting that I can and will make the right decisions. Thank you for putting up with me when I didn't even know who ME was.

So here is what I accomplished in 6weeks.

Completed Shaun T's CIZE Challenge Group
Lost 35in and 27.4lbs
Found the me I once used to be!
Became happier, more outgoing, more patient, and more caring.
I have became an Independent Beachbody Coach
I have helped a young man start his journey again(best feeling ever)
I have started helping others on their journey through life
I have seen the difference in my home and when I am around others
I am motivated

However, one thing is missing and that's YOU because YOU are not on this journey with me yet!

What are you waiting for? Why haven't you pushed play? What are you eating? What is your go to for yourself?

When should you work out?

I think this chart definitely shows when it is best for someone to workout! The one thing I have always done is workout after my three oldest girls get on the bus and then I work out at night when they are home after dinner but no closer than 3 hours before I go to bed. I have learned if I work out within that 3hours my mind and heart are going so I want to be up doing something..Want results find out a time that works best for you. However, before you do that you must find what program works best for you!

You like to dance: CIZE, Hip Hop Abs, Brazil Butt lift, Rockin' Body, Turbo Jam

You like specialty programs: Body Beast, Tai Cheng, P90X2, Insanity Asylum

https://www.beachbody.com/category/fitness_programs/compare_fitness_programs.do#6

Go to that link it gives you all the differences!

Need someone to talk to about what would be best for you? Contact me!!

Need motivation, a coach, someone to teach you how to eat right? Contact me!!

It doesn't matter if you are in IL, CA, or NY or anywhere what matters is that you take that first step in bettering yourself.

Why we shouldn't drink..

If you think that drinking and workind out are working for you then you haven't committed yourself!

 Do you really love working out so much that you haven't opened your eyes to see that you cannot defy the odds?

 What is holding you back from giving it up?

Sometimes you have to just stop! Stop the bad habits. Stop the drinking..partying really isn't as cute when you are older! The partying has it's time and well if you are committed to a better lifestyle then this is not the time. The time for the drinking, partying, acting like you don't care has to be done. You have to care, you have to make the time, and you have to stop the drinking! You are not only ruining your work you are ruining your body!!! Why put something in that is going to make you sick, waste your money, and give you a headache the next day just to feel "good" for an hour? Stop it go work out you will feel great without the alcohol in your system, you will have energy, you will be able to get up without feeling crappy!

CIZE week 6 day 2

Check out all that sweat!!! That is me glowing for my spotlight on the dance floor with Shaun and his group! I loved my workout today which was followed by running around outside with 3 of my girls. Yes we enjoyed it and the baby even got to swing outside for the first time at 8mths old!!!!

Anyways, I tried to stay up late last night to skype with Shaun but I past out a little after 1am...my rest was down the drain and I blame myself for not staying up another hr to be able to skype with him! Anyways, I woke up this morning with my mind set to give it my all because if I don't how can I expect others to?

Oh MY GOSSH!!!! I learned there is a new program coming out! Have you seen it?!? I am so waiting for it..if you want to please feel free to use this link to be one of the first to find out! http://www.countryheattbb.com/?referringRepID=1022151

You can get a short view of what we will be getting through here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r9CzP4piXvQ&feature=youtu.be

SO, go sign up and remember to push play daily! Much Love, Sweat, Healthiness, and Fun!!!